{"id":10028,"date":"2009-09-27T11:14:40","date_gmt":"2009-09-27T09:14:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dev.harald-bluechel.com\/doubt-and-consequence-2\/"},"modified":"2009-09-27T11:14:40","modified_gmt":"2009-09-27T09:14:40","slug":"doubt-and-consequence-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/doubt-and-consequence-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Doubt and consequence 2"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>13:33  <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Commuting between Hamburg and Berlin. I can&#8217;t find peace. I&#8217;m not with myself. I try as hard as I can to keep myself together. I don&#8217;t succeed. The strange dynamics in the group have a lasting effect on me. Is it just an internal attempt at persuasion, or is it in fact &#8220;good for my experience&#8221; to once again couple myself with the proverbial &#8220;life out there&#8221;, the &#8220;constraints&#8221;, &#8220;reality&#8221;. I agreed to the project. Yes! I am keeping my promise. Yes! But am I still bound by my promise if all that remains of the jointly discussed project is the name, but its concept has been completely thrown overboard? Who doesn&#8217;t keep their promise?           <\/p>\n<p>Is it strength of character to stick to something formally just to make it look like everything is ok? So that you can continue to be seen as &#8220;loyal&#8221;, &#8220;reliable&#8221; and &#8220;professional&#8221; and\/or continue to get good jobs? Is it &#8220;disloyal&#8221; to follow your stance? What is an individual in a group allowed to get away with?   <\/p>\n<p>My feeling signals skepticism, because my pure sensations say: I don&#8217;t feel well &#8211; I&#8217;m completely out of place here &#8211; what&#8217;s the use and for whom?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>13:33 Commuting between Hamburg and Berlin. I can&#8217;t find peace. I&#8217;m not with myself. I try as hard as I can to keep myself together. I don&#8217;t succeed. The strange [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[59],"tags":[434,425],"class_list":["post-10028","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-autobiographical","tag-art","tag-biography"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10028","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10028"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10028\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10028"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10028"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.harald-bluechel.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10028"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}