I
I like recurring patterns, rituals, cycles, series of all kinds!
With the summer concerts at the Himmelpfort mill I have found a new pattern again. So I am already looking forward to the continuation of 2019 (hopefully already with the finished album plus music books in my luggage)!
It makes me happy to experience how the (seemingly) same can feel different in each repetition. A pattern lives, evolves in repetition. In its most beautiful moments, it grows beyond its own horizon of imagination, becomes independent, transcends itself, in some cases even changes into something completely new. You will not even realize this in the current process, but only in the later hard A / B comparison between the original pattern and the current endpoint, which will be part of the further development next time.
II
The new I experience over and through repetition. If I am in a new environment (a new place, a new interpersonal situation, a new project, whatsoever), I first orientate myself to the basic coarse corner points. I try to find out and try out their basic structure: the more confident I am in it (through practice, i.e. repetition), the more the view widens for details, for the depth of field, for something special, something unique. The new environment reveals its secrets, its beauty in direct proportion to my available free resource potential.
Contrary to the widespread opinion repetition would be dull monotony, things turn around for me: from repetition does not arise expectation but surprise, repetition allows me freedom instead of restriction,
Movement instead of solidification,
Amazement, attention and pleasure instead of habituation and routine.
III
During the concerts, while playing I looked every now and then left through the window in the western evening sky. The playing unfolded in the calm, organic-flowing evolution of light from steel-blue to yellow, orange, and red, to the onset of darkness, the movement of the clouds, and the floating pattern of the birds underneath.
With a straight look and to the right I could see in the room filled to the last seat. The light, the world outside, the concentration and energy of each individual in the audience, the grand piano, the sound, the room, my emotional-emotional situation flowed together into an overall state.
In the break and after the concerts, I thought about how nice it is to be in the moments, part of an endlessly woven band of moments never to be repeated in this form, constellation and atmosphere.
Each and every one is actor and re-actor at the same time, gives and takes, produces and consumes, radiates and attracts.
IV
This is the wonderful, ever-recurring discovery of uniqueness –
NO ORDINARY MOMENTS …
“No ordinary moments”: this is also the name of the new piece that I played in public for the first time at the two summer concerts, always as the beginning of the second part of the concert.