What must not be, must not be
I lost them again:
the light, carefree moments,
where I didn’t have to check,
what is happening around me and inside me.
Where I was simply free for a sequence of moments.
A slight shift and
Everything started to slide.
A house of cards or a monolithic mass?
Only absolute strength can withstand both.
Is all of life a single armored solidity?
I feel confident in the script I have written,
according to which I act like my own actor in his own production.
I try to exclude imponderables.
Uncertainties scare me.
So I see them as a burden,
as something that thwarts personal designs;
Consequently, I have to free myself from my own wishes and actions.
distracts.
What must not be, must not be.
Stubbornness is not the right word.
Un-spontaneity is not the right word.
Complacency is not the right word.
Self-centeredness is not the right word.
Inability to love is not the right word.
A lack of willingness to compromise is not the right word.
There is no right word.
But the condition exists.
( March 1, 07 )